August 2011
6 posts
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Some things are worth explaining.
There’s this thing that I’m not proud of, I don’t agree with it, and I wish desperately that I could change it. I think, WAY too much. So much that it makes me act irrationally in certain situations, because I stuff the way that I feel so deep down that something small could trigger months of baggage. It’s unfair to the people around me and I find myself apologizing more...
“This is not the sound of a new man or crispy realization, It’s the sound...”
– Bon Iver (Re:Stacks)
April 2011
1 post
A Fight to Forgive.
I want few things in this life,
I want to love, be loved, and bring praise to God through everything I do. Those three things seem easy enough, but sometimes they feel impossible. I have been so unforgiving throughout the past couple of years, Thinking that I could never deserve much. That anything that could possibly make me happy was too good to be true. I would wake up in the morning, I go...
March 2011
1 post
Distractions
It baffles me how quickly things can change. Winter quarter sped past me as if it was going 200 mph and I had no control over it. I have to say it was one of the best quarters at school I’ve ever had, I got good grades, met amazing people, and worked out everyday (which I am EXTREMELY proud of). I have no regrets, except this, I keep letting myself get distracted from my relationship with...
February 2011
2 posts
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I’ve had no motivation to write lately and it’s not because I’ve had better things to do. There’s always so much I could say, so much I’m thinking about, and the more I think, the less I let myself say.
That’s all I can say right now. This is the worst feeling ever.
January 2011
15 posts
We're Christians, Not Robots
I am on a huge equality kick right now. Yes, I believe In God. Yes, I try to encourage others to do the same. But never have I looked down on someone for not having the same belief system as I do, or ever tried to force my beliefs down their throat. I am infuriated right now, and I will try to be as calm as possible as I write this.
Dissing on others religions, faith, and morality is like dissing...
Living life, Feeling free
There are a few questions that have recently been raised in my life. Who am I? What am I doing here? and Why do I matter? whether or not you’ve asked yourselves these questions I am unsure, but I know the significance these questions have had in my life.
The first of these questions hit me like a ton of bricks this last year, when I woke up with a heavy and bitter heart. It kept repeating...
My Dreams, As Opposed to Reality
Dreams might be one of the most confusing concepts to me. Some people say dreams are subconsciously what you really are feeling, some that they are merely your hearts desires, and others that they mean nothing. My dreams happen to affect me more than I would like, and when I wake up in the morning it takes me a good amount of time to convince myself “it’s just a dream”. It seems...
“Feel the pain teaching us how much more we can take
Reminding us how far...”
– Copeland: When Finally Set Free
It was your love, that kept me hanging on every...
I haven’t written an entry in a while. I’ve been thinking a lot though. Recently some interesting things have been happening in my life. This whole positivity turn is truly testing me to the fullest extent. I know God throws obsticles in our way so we can prove to ourselves and others the degree of which our relationship stands with Him. But sometimes it’s hard to see the...
“Lose your life, just so you can find it.”
– Phil Wickham
Humility
We go throughout our lives, every single day, making thousands of excuses for each other, and why we are the way we are. Instead of being real with our thoughts and emotions, we make up reasons why our actions are acceptable. Over-time, walls are built, grudges continue to be held, and therefor the emotions stop being apparent to anyone but the person hiding them.
There’s always something...
Acceptance
There’s been so much on my mind lately. My mind is constantly over-thinking and over-working itself. This past year was filled with stress, anxiety, nervous breakdowns, sickness, and poor judgment. Can you blame me for needing some sort of recovery from that?
The starting of this New Year, I feel, has been nothing less than quiet, solitary, and segregated. I was definitely unaware of my...
Life Without Loss
Transformation defined by the dictionary is this: “an act of transforming or transformation.” Whoever made that up got EXTREMELY creative on that one! It’s funny to me that such a powerful impacting word could have such a little, insignificant meaning…but I’ll get back to this in a minute.
This New Years I’ve decided not to go ahead with having a New Years...
“They say it only takes 7 seconds to make a first impression. Just goes to show...”
“let’s stay together till we’re ghosts, I wanna witness love,...”